TRANSITION

as the title suggest, here's my little "Transition" over the years. photos capture that moment, but not the people in it. people changes. so do i.

Da Bam!

okay, so this is how i look like now. hmms. well? i see that change in the way i portray myself, i see the change in the way my eyes stares. but aiyah. idk what to say also.

Anyway, I've never really talked about this before. i hate to say this but i can't seem to let go of things. i hate how our friendship turned out like this. i hate how we were so close and yet i can't even get a reply of "Thanks" for wishing you happy birthday. i'm upset at how i didn't hold you closer and not let you be who you are now. people tell me that it's not my fault. but it still sucks to see you like this when i could have helped for that slightest bit. looking back at our photos make me feel...regretful. if only i had held on longer. even if i know it's not within my control, i still feel the same way. seeing your tweets of you smoking makes me feel worst. out of sight, out of mind? i tried that. i removed you off my news feed. but i would still visit your profile once in a while and i'll always feel lousy after that. i knew i would feel that way but i still did. the other day at the gathering, we didn't have much to say. it sucks. it sucks a lot. but.. well.

i just need to learn how to let go of things. be it friendship or relationships.argh.

bye, with love.