"When people see good they expect good. And I don't wanna live up to anyone's expectations." - Damon Salvatore
"you made a brave choice today. be strong darling." - Uncle Joeye.
i made a choice today which i feel totally rotten about and i totally hate it. it made me tear for that 2 hours and i could hardly breathe properly.
it hurts to see those disappointed msges and faces from people whom i care. it sucks to be the cause of their disappointments. nonetheless, i know it's for the best. best for everyone.
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through the years that i've looked back at, i told myself not to be stupid ever again. i've learnt to protect myself better. i've learnt not to assume anything even though they are obvious enough. i've learnt to only take things in only when it's said and spoken by the person him/herself. i've learnt never to assume, to protect myself. yes, selfish. but that's the only way i trust to protect myself.
i've learnt my lesson. i told myself, i'll become someone better. someone whom he will regret for not holding on. i told myself i would slim down. i would want to be someone that he regrets so much. someone that he never thought would become (in a positive way). when i say he, is whomever that i've came across and missed our chances. i got to know one last night. whether or not he means it, at least i feel better. better that he regrets for not holding on. at least i know, i've become better.
and this is really how i feel.
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in any case that readers don't know what nuyiep-m-o means, it means nuyiep's moving on. and i did.
♥ 10:55 PM
