That awkward moment when someone asked you about someone you're close to and you dont know how to reply.
my sis asked me about this friend of mine whom i used to be so closed with. she saw my friend's FB status and said that my friend was rather moody and if she's okay. i know i've entirely given up when my answer was "who's that? i dont know her."
yes, it hurts. it hurts like hell when i made myself say such words. i used to try so hard, trying to make sure she's fine, running after her, smsing her and realised that i'm just no one for her to reply my msges.
and every single time this happens, i would rant to our mutual friends and they would say that i'm thinking too much or maybe i got the msg wrongly. just a few days ago, our mutual friend experienced the same thing from me, confirming my doubts.
yes, you've changed. changed so much that i don't know you anymore. i used to give in and always text you first, affirming you that no matter what happens, i'm still around for you, that i'll not give up on you. however, this time round, i know i've really given up.
the 7 years friendship sums up to nothing now. the memories will only be memories. the days that i used to hug you when you cry, will just be memories.
i know i've really given up when i say such words. deep inside, i know i dont want to give up on our friendship. nonetheless, i dont want to be thick skinned or like a slug that sticks to you, when perhaps, you dont want me in your life anymore.
i doubt you even know my link here.
bye.
♥ 12:27 PM
