Forgiving. i guess something that adds colour to our lives, perhaps it's
forgiving. whether was it the theory of forgiving or was it the practice of forgiving you call it. Forgiving made our life so much easier and beautiful.
Was it in you that you're
forgiving? Or was it
the-one-up-there who chose to give you the fate of forgiving? if so, do you then believe in fate? the fate that
the-one-up-there decides for you?
Once again, if so. Do you then blames
the-one-up-there for deciding your fate, for not giving you the chance to choose? Do you then blame
the-one-up-there for giving you your current fate/life? Perhaps at certain point of your life, you might be thinking that
the-one-up-there has been playing with your life, having you in circles. Do you then blames
the-one-up-there?
Perhaps i was stubborn enough to not forgive myself, or to forgive anyone that i should/could,or in fact, i must. I've learnt. To at least bare in mind that everyone would have their own reasons for every little thing they do. Even if they don't, perhaps one day we'll get the reason somewhere.
I've learnt. To at least, forgive people for their misdoings. whether was it their misdoings that they did to others or to me. To forgive. Whether they were sincere of redeeming themselves for their own doings or not.
Yet, I guess I've not learnt how to forgive myself for whatever I have done to hurt others or myself. I've yet to learnt to forgive myself for landing myself in whatever plight i am in. Neither do i blame
the-one-up-there for not giving me the fate to forgive myself. perhaps i was too stubborn for
the-one-up-there to do anything.
The minimum that i could do now, is to learn to forgive the others. I might eventually be able to forgive myself for what ever that I've not forgiven myself for. Or i might not be able to. perhaps
the-one-up-there would do me a favour and make things easier for me.
Perhaps there wasn't anything for me to forgive myself for. Perhaps I've long forgiven myself.
Perhaps so.* the-one-up-there can be anyone. not being religious-ist or anything. just anyone up there is possible. whoever that you believe in.
